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dia yg datang tak terduga disaat tak ingin mencari
dia yg mengubah pandanganku akan dunia, meyakinkanku sangatlah indah bisa berguna bagi yg lain tanpa sedikitpun keluh timbul
dia yg kikis egoku, mencambukku bahwa aku masih bisa lebih baik dari ini
dia yg menggugah hatiku untuk menyayanginya tanpa ragu
dia yg menceriakanku saat ku hancur berantakan atau berkeluh
dia yg selalu cantik di mata dan hatiku
dia yg membahagiakan hidupku, niatku tuk balas semua hingga akhir masaku
dia yg percayakan aku akan hatinya, sungguh ku tak berani abaikannya
kasihku tuk dia yg kusayang……….

actually I already know bout my spider sense (citated 4m Spiderman character), but what stupid me is keep fighting 4 a dream that I never could reach, ever once!!! as usual I wake up early in the mornin’ n first 4 pray then awake every body up by my silly overboost speaker. few hours later, I sitted on my carpet, review everything I’ve felt since many days ago. I was frighten, seem somebody smashed me hardly onto the floor, to pieces!! once again, just by silence n see I lost every faith to struggle forward, is like I start over w/ a dream. whatta fragnatic story of me, did I make a big mistake till no more chance 4 me. at that time flash in my mind a poem, bout  me chasin’ wind that blow around, I keep fighting cuz I know the wind bring something that I’ve been looking for. but I never make it, finally I fall into the hill while staring at the sky, slowly the lights fade away 4m my eyes, then I realized I lied on the ground n scared bout darkness will come to get me dance with them. will the wind awake n save me? nope!! suddenly I see lights around me, it sounds they need me, I must get up, I still have many other dream to catch. n thanks to Allah for keepin’ me alive, maybe I’ll win another chance later. n thanks to everyone who supportin’ me, my family n all my real best friends. sorry 4 my behavior.

anyone can make me laugh? just my imagination…

Gila, penyakitku ini bikin terkadang keder juga, masa baru nyampe ditempat baru udah kangen dengan segala yg kutinggalkan di Jogja, yah maksudku phisically separated (kata si bos botak (hehe sori bos yg penting qta pren OK?!)"adanya ruang dan waktulah yg membatasi seorang manusia, maka dari itu manfaatkanlah apa yg ada sebaik-baiknya"). wuahaha rasanya aneh waktu didoktrin "berikanlah seluruh jiwa dan ragamu untuk perusahaan", bodo, ga mungkin orang kaya aku begitu, tau sendirilah buat siapa akan kuberikan semua itu, kalo pikiran dan tenaga siy OK2 aja. sori ya bos gw sulit dibujuki, kecuali ma tiiiiiiiit (censored) and so on.

aaaaaaaaaaaah…..kuangen berat, sebel dicuekin. ah dibikin sibuk aja kali ya, jadi kata pakde jadi orang tuh yg profesional, bedakan antara kerja dan perasaan. um…emang gitu ya?haha masih kupelajari.sepi juga jauh dari temen2 n kluargaku, yayaya bikin teman sih gampang, cari sahabat sejati duh pusiing,harus diuji dulu d.

satu pertanyaan andai dia merasa, pedulikah dia saat kuterduduk merasa takut akankah terwujud semua cita? "dia",sso yg mengatakan aku bukanlah orang yg mengasyikkan, ya maaf aku hanya membatasi diriku, ya aku ga suka omong&salah topik yg aku ga tau.bye…I’ll miss my family, my hometown, n you.I’ve to conquer myself n set my future either you in it or not.I hope we’ll meet in the next precious time.